November 27th 2024.
As I sat at the dining room table on 14 October 2021, going through my work emails, my husband Ryan returned from the gym. He rubbed his arm and told me that he had been stung by a bee on his way home and felt strange. I could sense from his voice that something was seriously wrong. Ryan and I had been together since I was 24 and just a few days ago, we had celebrated our eighth wedding anniversary. Our three-year-old son Jackson was at daycare and I was 26 weeks pregnant with our second son. We were overjoyed at the thought of expanding our family.
But now, Ryan's condition seemed to be deteriorating and I immediately called for an ambulance. I informed the operator that my husband was experiencing anaphylactic shock from a bee sting, despite never having any known allergies. Ryan stumbled out of the front door and I followed, only to find him slumped over and struggling to breathe. Panic set in as the operator instructed me to perform CPR. Tears streaming down my face, I followed the instructions and prayed for Ryan to pull through. The paramedics arrived just in time and took him to the hospital. I followed in a police car, completely shaken and praying for a miracle.
At the hospital, I learned that the paramedics were able to get Ryan's heart beating again, but the lack of oxygen had caused a severe anoxic brain injury. When I saw my husband lying in the hospital bed, it didn't seem real. Just moments ago, we were enjoying our morning coffee together and now he was in a coma, covered in wires and machines monitoring his vitals. The doctors had to place a device in his brain to monitor the pressure and administer medication to prevent any further brain damage.
Three days later, my sister Rachel brought Jackson to the hospital to see his daddy. I hugged my son and explained to him that his daddy had an accident and was very sick. Being only three years old, Jackson couldn't fully understand the gravity of the situation. Due to Covid restrictions, it took a month before Jackson was allowed to visit Ryan in the ICU. I told him that he could talk to and hug his daddy, and he hesitantly climbed onto the hospital bed to sit with him.
Despite the odds, Ryan miraculously survived. However, the lack of oxygen had left him in a vegetative state - unable to move, speak, or feel emotions. He would often sit in a wheelchair with his eyes closed, completely unaware of his surroundings. Every day, I would drop Jackson off at daycare and make the hour-long drive to the hospital to be with Ryan. I was on autopilot, constantly worried about him developing pneumonia or struggling to breathe with his tracheostomy. Nine weeks after the accident, I was scheduled for a C-section to deliver our second son, Leo, a month earlier than expected due to pregnancy complications.
Unfortunately, my sister-in-law and I both tested positive for Covid, and I ended up giving birth alone. Due to restrictions, it took an hour before I could hold my baby. Holding Leo, I felt numb, unable to fully enjoy this moment with my newborn. The next day, I introduced Jackson to his baby brother, Leo Joseph. His middle name was chosen in honor of Ryan's middle name.
My mother-in-law moved in to help me with the two boys while Ryan was in the hospital. A month later, I was finally allowed to bring Leo to see his daddy. I laid him on Ryan's chest, mourning the bond that they would never have. These were not the family photos I had dreamed of. Taking care of a newborn and a toddler while watching Ryan slip away was a constant struggle.
After five months, the doctors informed us that Ryan was not improving cognitively and was deteriorating physically. They sadly told us that he would never make a meaningful recovery. It was heartbreaking to hear, especially since my husband was a tall, strong, and handsome man who had dedicated 10 years of his life to serving in the police force. But now, he was unrecognizable in his vegetative state. After many tearful discussions with Ryan's family, we made the difficult decision to withdraw all life-sustaining care and place him on hospice.
I had to explain to Jackson that his daddy was not going to get better and that he would eventually die. He nodded in understanding. In March 2022, on the 10-year anniversary of when we first fell in love, Ryan received a beautiful procession held by hundreds of police and K9 units as a tribute to his loyal service. The following month, after 22 days in hospice, I received the news that it was time. I rushed to Ryan's bedside and was able to see his last breaths before he passed away with a smile on his lips. He was only 35 years old.
It was a devastating loss for our family, and I struggled to come to terms with the fact that my husband was gone. But I found solace in the thought that he was no longer in pain and was finally at peace. I will always cherish the time we had together, and I am grateful for our two beautiful sons who will carry on Ryan's memory.
I remember the day vividly. It was October 14, 2021, and I was going about my usual routine, answering work emails at the dining room table. My husband Ryan had just returned from the gym and as he sat down, he mentioned that he had been stung by a bee on the way home and wasn't feeling quite right. His voice sounded strained and I could tell that something was seriously wrong.
Ryan and I had been together for eight years, having started dating when I was 24. We had just celebrated our wedding anniversary two days prior. Our three-year-old son Jackson was at daycare, and I was 26 weeks pregnant with our second child, another son. We were overjoyed and couldn't wait to welcome him into our family.
But as Ryan's condition worsened, I knew I needed to act fast. I called for an ambulance, explaining to the operator that my husband was showing signs of anaphylactic shock from a bee sting, even though he had never had an allergic reaction before. As I followed Ryan outside, I found him slumped over and struggling to breathe. My heart raced as the operator instructed me to perform CPR.
I did everything I could, screaming for help and tears streaming down my face. The paramedics arrived just in time as Ryan went into cardiac arrest. I followed behind in a police car, completely shaken and praying for my husband's survival.
I arrived at the hospital and learned that the paramedics had managed to get Ryan's heart beating again, but the lack of oxygen had caused severe brain damage. When I saw him lying in the hospital bed, hooked up to machines and monitors, it felt like a nightmare. One moment we were enjoying coffee together, and now he was in a coma.
The doctors had inserted a bolt into his brain to monitor the pressure and determine the appropriate medication to prevent brain death. It was a constant waiting game, hoping and praying for any signs of improvement. Three days later, my sister brought Jackson to the hospital to see his daddy. I explained to him that Ryan had an accident and was sick, unable to come home. At just three years old, he couldn't fully comprehend the gravity of the situation.
Due to Covid restrictions, it took a month before we were allowed to bring Jackson to the hospital to see Ryan. I told him he could talk and hug his daddy, and although he was hesitant at first, he eventually climbed onto the hospital bed to sit with him. It was a bittersweet moment, seeing my husband and son together, but Ryan was still in a coma.
By some miracle, Ryan survived, but the brain damage was severe. He was discharged from the ICU, but he was completely unaware of his surroundings and unable to talk, move, or feel emotions. He was in a vegetative state, with no quality of life.
Every day, I would drop Jackson off at daycare and drive over an hour to the hospital. I would spend the whole day with Ryan, then pick Jackson up. I was running on autopilot, constantly worried about getting a phone call that Ryan had developed another complication. He was constantly choking on his secretions, and his hands and feet had developed contractures.
Nine weeks after the accident, I was scheduled for a C-section. I was 37 weeks pregnant but had to deliver early due to a pregnancy complication. My sister-in-law came to support me, but we both tested positive for Covid, so I ended up giving birth alone. Due to restrictions, it took an hour before I could hold our baby boy, Leo Joseph. Ryan and I had chosen his first name, and Joseph was Ryan's middle name.
My mother-in-law moved in temporarily to help me, and when Leo was a month old, I was finally allowed to bring him to the hospital to see Ryan. I placed him on his chest, mourning the bond they would never have. I took pictures, far from the family photos I had dreamed of. Back home, I was juggling a newborn and a toddler while my husband drifted further away.
After five months of waiting and hoping for any signs of improvement, the doctors told us that Ryan would never make a meaningful recovery. It was devastating news. My husband, who had worked for the police force for 10 years, was now unrecognizable in his vegetative state.
After many tearful and difficult discussions, Ryan's family and I made the decision to withdraw life-sustaining care and place him on hospice. I explained to Jackson that the doctors couldn't make Daddy better, and he was going to die. I made sure he had the chance to hug and kiss his daddy goodbye.
On March 2022, 10 years to the day since we fell in love, Ryan received a beautiful procession held by hundreds of police and K9 units, honoring his decade of loyal service. The following month, after 22 days in hospice, I received the news that it was time. I rushed to Ryan's bedside just in time to see his last breath. He was only 35 years old.
In that moment, I was filled with a mix of emotions - heartbreak, sadness, and relief that he was no longer suffering. I was grateful for the time we had together, but devastated that it had to end so soon. My husband, my partner, and the father of my children was gone. But his memory lives on, and I will always cherish the time we had together, no matter how short it may have been.
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